Secrets.

I hate having secrets.

Normally, I don't hesitate to tell people what I'm thinking. Normally, all of my friends have the key to my heart. Really, it's open to anyone who asks. Normally.

Lately, I've been keeping more and more to myself. I've only been expressing my feelings to a remote number of people. Most of my closet friends don't even know what's going on in my life. Well, the emotional stuff. This is unusual for me, and I hate it.

Whether I like it or not, it's fact. I feel like I don't even have control to change it. If someone asked me about any of this, I probably wouldn't be able to answer them.

I've never really felt like this before. It's like everything is too personal. I don't really even know.

Maybe I'm changing. Maybe I've just never had anything too personal to hide. Maybe it's a bit of both.

If it's a change, I don't really know what to think. I don't think it's a bad change. It's not like I'm not telling anyone anything... I can still manage sharing my feelings with a few people, depending on the person and the subject.

At the moment, I don't really know.

Why are secrets so confusing?

Blah.

My day started out rather average. I was in a supprisingly good mood. I woke up an half-hour later then usual, but I didn't really care. I broke my headband, but I didn't really care. Then, I didn't make it into the spring play, but again, I didn't care.

By afternoon, I was in a great mood. A really great mood. The best part was, I had no reason whatsoever to be so happy. I actually had a couple reasons to make me feel only okay or whatever, but really, I was extremely happy.

Then, once I got home, I had a really sucky afternoon. I don't really want to talk about it, but basically...

I hate boys.
They're stupid.
rawr.
the end.

Yeah... I don't know.

It's like... 11:26 right now, and I feel a little better. Actually, I'm not really that sad at the moment. I think I'm just too tired.

You know that feeling when you're just too tired to care? Yeah... That.

rawr.
the end.

Speech!

Speech was yesterday, and holy crap, I can't wait for state! Yes, our sporks choral reading got a one, and we are therefore going to state. We're apparently adding some stuff to it, so I'm pretty pumped. A lot of W-SR made it, and Jordan T made it! I haven't talked to Jordan Crosser yet, but I'm really hoping she made it because that would mean I would finally be able to meet her! Wow. You really have no idea how excited I am... =D

busy, busy, busy

Ah! Speech is NEXT SATURDAY! I'm really excited, and I really hope we're ready... Our chorale reading is pretty fun. It's about sporks! =P (the noblest of flatware)

Mock trial has finally started. Yikes?

We're half through semester tests! w00t! Except I have to do my spanish skits tomarrow... Uh oh. I hope I do okay... The tests today were all pretty easy.

The rest of this week and next week are really really busy for me.
Friday: Finish Semester Tests. Tarryn's and then Sam Brooks'
Saturday: Math Competition
Sunday: um... idk. church.
Monday: NO SCHOOL! but speech practice and mock trial stuff.
Tuesday: School, then speech practice
Wednesday: School, then some workshop thing, and possibly, youth group that night.
Thursday: School, speech.
Friday: Uh... idk.
Saturday: Speech!!
Sunday: Church and such.

Crazy... I know.

Facebook Quizes

Okay, I admit, there's not really any point to posting these on here, but I thought they were really cute, so I'm going to. =P



What Kind of Guy Would You Fall For?

I would fall for a Nerd
Your man is socially awkward and completely sweet. Although other people may make fun of him now, just wait a few years and those same people that made fun of him will probably be working for him. He will worship the ground you walk on and love you like crazy, although he may not always know how to express it. You find his awkwardness endearing because you know that underneath all that nervous stuttering and passion for obscure subjects is a really great guy who adores you!



Which Disney Song Describes Your Life Right Now?

Your life now can be described by A Whole New World, from Aladdin
You love adventure and experiencing new things. With an optimistic and curious nature, you are not afraid of trying new things or putting yourself into challenging situations. You have a creative mind and are able to see things from a very different point of view than most people. People enjoy being with you because you can make them see the world in a different, more positive way. You have a very free spirit and you do not like taking orders. You may have recently found your true love (whether that be a person or your calling) and have reached new heights. You feel nothing can go wrong now, but be careful not to fall off the magic carpet.

Caucus

So I haven't written in my blog for quite a while, so I figured I should probably write about last Thursday. I went with my mom to caucus for Obama. I got a pretty amazing sticker (Standing with Obama). Unfortunetly, in our township, Obama ended up not being viable, so we were planning on staying undecisive instead of choosing to caucus for Edwards or Clinton. Then, one of us realized that Clinton had so many supporters she would end up getting both electoral vote things... (yeah, I dont exactly remember what they're called.) We then realized that all of us hated Clinton(haha), so we all went over to cacaus for Edwards, even though we didn't really like him either, just so Clinton wouldn't win. What seemed as Edwards vs. Clinton was actually Clinton vs. not Clinton... lol. Yeah, it was interesting.

So far this year...

I've gotten the oppurtunity to spend time with some of the people I care about most.

I've slept for a total of 2 hours. Give or take 30 minutes.

I've made time to work on my homework. (*gasp* news years resolution!)

I've actually learned a lot.

I've also laughed a lot. (no supprise there...)

I've looked at things differently.

I have not causually used the word love. When I've said it, I've meant it.

I've been me.

<3