man, i'm such a hypocrite.

you know those things that bother you about yourself?
everyone has them.

there's just little things you feel inside that don't make sense to you


there are morals that you expect others, and yourself, to posess, but sometimes, you feel like you're straying away from those morals; it seems almost uncontrollable.

there's such a fine line; it makes it hard to know if you've crossed it.


it isn't right.
it isn't fair.
it's hypocritical.

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