also.

i told you that i didn't write in my blog very often because i didn't have anything to say that i wouldn't say out loud.
well, i lied.
actually, i just changed my mind.
i have things to say, that i won't say
mostly because i know
if i say them
or even write them down,
things would change.
or, i would say something else,
and things would change more;
i don't want to mess this up.